How To Make Conscious Choice A Part of Your Life
Sunday morning yoga, let me tell you wwwwhhhhattt. I’m glad I went and the whole time I was screaming at the instructor in my head because she was so disorganized. Her transitions were off, she didn’t tell us what weights to pull (it was a sculpt class), she was breathing so loudly into the microphone and COME ON the whole point of a microphone is to amplify sound, did she really need to yell? Like we get it, you want to be heard. F-bomb. I was getting so annoyed. OHMYGOSHSTOPTALKING!
I was taking my internal experience and making it an external one. I think she even picked up on it and the whole experience felt counter-active to the reason why I was going to yoga in the first place: “to be the zen”. Except is that really why, or is it to notice when I am having a human experience.
I wanted to move my body. Check. I wanted to get out of the house. Check. I wanted to cast a vote towards the identity of my future self … check-ish. Did I want to be all health and fitness? Yes. Did I want to be in a rage in my head? No.
Who had the ability to remedy that? Me.
The external factor (this yoga instructor) only brought out in me what as already there. That rage, that anger at disorganization is in fact a me issue, not this instructor. So I had a choice to make when I got into my car: either stay annoyed that the class didn’t go the way I wanted, or chalk it up to a human experience that helped me move through anger.
There’s a foundation principle from iPEC: Every moment gives you the opportunity to choose who you want to be.
Maybe getting annoyed works in the moment, and maybe it’s a moment to offer yourself some compassion, trusting this moment is there to teach you a lesson. You get to choose how you view it. In this moment, I chose to honor the fact I have some internal work to do around my anger. So, to this yoga instructor out there, thank you for holding up the mirror to me.
What moment do you have in your life where there is a tiny yoga instructor yelling into a microphone driving you crazy?
How do you want to handle it?
From one Tough Cookie to another,
Kaleigh